PURPOSE OF LIFE

Shaykh Mendes shared in his talk that Allah has given each and everyone of us a purpose in life. It is our duty to seek our true purpose. More often than not, doing what makes us happy is our reason for living. Our responsibility is to make our goal in life to be of a service to Allah.

Alhamdulillah, I have found my purpose. I believe that I wasn’t named “Nadhirah” by coincident. From the very beginning Allah has placed my purpose in life in my own name, which means, radiance. This itself, is just so beautiful. I hope with my presence I can bring happiness and calmness that gives gratitude to Allah and his Messenger, InshaaAllah.

And I would like to take this opportunity to seek your prayers. I have just submitted my application to pursue my education in counselling, hence, I hope anyone who reads this, put their hands together and make du’a for me. InshaaAllah!

Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless you and your family, whoever you may be (:

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GOLDEN NUGGETS

Chanced upon two pieces of write up shared by a dear friend. In these two writings, there were two golden nuggets (because I just ate a nugget) that I took away.

If someone thanks you, know that he thanks for Allah. He is not offering thanks to your ego. Stay on the outside of this transaction; you are nothing more than a facilitator, in this transaction, a facilitator of this gratitude between the seeker and the Sought, between the servant and the Master.

Taken from HERE.

The more physical light we have, the more we’re able to see. Likewise, the more spiritual light in your heart, the more of the spiritual world we’re able to see. And this is the objective, the primary benefit of Islamic belief, Islamic law, and Islamic spirituality (Iman, Islam, and Ihsan), of knowing the signs of the Day of Judgment – so that more Light comes into your heart so that you can see the world as it truly is, and you can understand the Universe as it truly is.

Taken from HERE.

In a nutshell, these two articles talked about believers as only a vassal in this world that relays the greatness of Allah and about how we are able to understand our true existence by increasing the spiritual light in our hearts.

Everyone should read these articles. I had such an enlightening moment and realised how little my presence is in the world the Al-Mighty created. SubhanAllah. May Allah bless us with sincere hearts and right intention to serve and obey His commands and may He bless you and your family, whoever you may be (:

ENDLESS SELFLESS LOVE

Tomorrow marks the start of my new learning journey. I am finally given the chance to pursue my dream since I was 15 – to study psychology. There was a point of time a few years back, when I decided to go off track and pursue Early Childhood instead. And, I did. The experience and all were enriching, but it wasn’t fulfilling enough for me. I feel restricted, not being able to do what I wanted to do. That’s when I realise, I should continue my dreams of learning more about psychology.

And so, after months of waiting for school to start, the day is finally inching closer. I am rather excited right now. This time, I want to push myself to the limit. I want to take risks. I want to grab any opportunity that presents itself to me. I will learn from all of my mistakes and learn from others as well. I will look at things in a new light, positively and stop judging and assuming. I want to have no regrets here in UNMC. This is definitely out of my comfort zone but I know I am capable and with His blessings, I will be able to break out of my shell and attain my dream.

I have been away from home for only 5 odd days and I have come to realise how selfish I have been. If you have read my previous posts, you might know that my situation with my father hasn’t been all great lately. But this experience, have taught me so much and made me realise how much my father actually loves me and knows me. My parents reached Malaysia 2 days after I did and they brought my other remaining stuff that I couldn’t carry. I listed down only three things for them to bring over for me. But as soon as I opened the luggage, I saw so many unnecessary things that were essential for me! They were all packed by my father. How much effort he actually put in to pack MY things inside the luggage. How much love he put in. Ya Allah.. I have truly sinned ):

During my last moments with my parents and aunt before we parted ways, my father kept giving me advices, those little advices to make friends. I felt a wee bit angry because I can make friends on my own even without him telling me to do it. Of course, being a useless daughter, I told him off. When my aunt heard what I said to my father, she immediately said, “Mak bapak semua memang gitu Nadhirah, dorang ni sebenarnya concern dengan anak-anak”. Ya Allah, when I heard that, I felt as though I have been slapped. And I am thankful for that. It’s true. My father is concerned about me, but he has a different way of showing it. I fail to see the way he sees things, I fail to appreciate deeply someone who loves me for me, who cares about me whole heartedly, who would do just about anything just for me. Ya Allah, thank you for all your timely reminders.

From now on, I will strive to be a better daughter. The things that my parents have done for me and the gestures that I have done to repay their deeds, amount to nothing. I am not a good daughter. But I know it’s not too late to mend things. InshaaAllah, I will be a good daughter to my parents. I am going to make them proud. I want to see them smiling on my graduation again. I want them to smile because of me. I want them to be proud of me. I want them to know that I have matured because of their endless selfless love. I love you, Ayah, Ibu ❤

May Allah bless you and your family, whoever you may be (:

IN DISTRESS

I really don’t mind doing chores. But can they just stop ordering me around? They keep telling me to wash the dishes, clean the room, hang the clothes and what nots. They still demand me to do it, let me quote what Ayah always say, “DO IT NOW!” The tone of voice is beyond over-bearing. I can’t deny the fact that my blood boils when I hear him say that. I usually try to shrug it off, but just now, I surrendered myself to my anger and retaliated.

But that’s not actually the worst thing. Every time, every single freaking time, I go out, even to my Nenek’s house, Ibu will get so pissed. She’ll start her story about how I always don’t do the housework, how I am always going out to enjoy and how when I am at home I am always on my laptop or lazing around. She always says that and it is down right hurtful!

They never acknowledge our efforts in keeping the house clean. I dare say my sister and I have been trying our best to keep the house clean. I actually like cleaning the house, but I don’t like the fact that they only get noisy when the house is in a mess! For once, I just want them to actually respect us. We are their children, not their slaves. We too want to keep the house clean, so they should let us do it at our own pace. I don’t see what’s the difference between washing the dishes at 5pm as compared to 6pm.

I know Ayah likes being authoritative and demanding, but it comes off as annoying and really over-bearing. Ibu just wants me to be at home for as long as I live. She just hates seeing me going out, even if it means I will be the only one at home. I just don’t get it. I am trying to suppress everything inside, hoping that I won’t explode the next time it happens.

This is beyond madness. I love my parents so much. But I need them to understand me. I need them to respect me. And as I write it down, I realise, how selfish I am as a daughter. It is my duty to take care of the house and my parents. Ya Allah, please grant me more patience. Here I am complaining about how my parents treat us, but other people don’t even have parents. Ya Allah.. :/

May Allah protect our family. May Allah grant more patience for us all. May Allah soften our hearts. Indeed, only Allah alone answers the supplication of the distress. May Allah bless you and your family whoever you may be (: