Alhamdulillah! I am currently in my hostel in UNMC. Thank you for all your prayers, farewell msges, gifts, hugs and love. I really appreciate them so much. If you are wondering how I feel, I survived an emotional turmoil. From the pre-trip to the trip itself and the post-trip. It felt really horrible. If possible, I never want to experience that feeling ever again. The feeling of regret and leaving something behind. The parting phase was pretty intense, I got it bad. It was like the separation anxiety I had when I was in my early childhood came back. I just couldn’t stop whining to myself, sighing and crying. It got worst when I entered my hostel alone.
Last night, given the lonely setting, I really wanted to bawl. But I stopped and reflected what happened that day. How I actually didn’t get lost while searching for my luggage at KLIA, how people were so nice to me and answered my every question, how responsive the staff here in UNMC were. They were all tell-tale signs that, everything’s going to be fine. And why was it possible? Because He planned it out all for me. When I almost lost my way around, He showed me the way. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah! Berkat doa kalian juga (‘: After the reflection, I realised, I must stop being all sad and depressed and start living my dream, achieve my goals, attain the knowledge in the path He has created for me. That’s when I knew, I survived the emotional turmoil.
Alhamdulillah, the aftermath of the entire emotional turmoil/reflection was good. I had my induction today and met so many nice new people from all over the world. I met people from Bahrain, Maldives, Oman and Indonesia. Oh yes, of course Malaysians. They’re really nice! One of them actually accompanied me to register my application and the other walked around campus with me. Felt nice to meet new people whom you can just communicate with. We’re even planning to go down to Tesco together! Can’t wait to explore the area. But I hope this confidence I have will be a stepping stone and not just a one off thing. So that’s about it, regarding my well being.
Let me share with you some details about UNMC. Mainly the perks first, since I have yet to find out more about the school. So far, I am really in love with the teaching approach. It’s mainly small group teaching (and I am an advocate for small group teachings!). We have lectures, which is equivalent to tutorials since there’s like less than 30 of us in a cohort. We’re each assigned to a personal tutor, whom we can regard as a buddy who will help us in both our welfare and academic. It’s really simple to navigate our way around the school. The structure of the school is like TP’s, and there isn’t any hills. The school banned alcohol and non-halal food on campus (I love Malaysia for this). The lecturers actually encouraged us to find our future spouse! As tempted as I might be, I really don’t want to focus my energy on ‘my feelings’, because it gets tiring as I grow older. (I don’t know how I am going to get married in 3/4 years to come!!! Oh, no, no, don’t worry, Allah knows best. hahaha) Though I cannot deny that there are many oh so good looking Arabs and British around here.
Once again, I would like to thank every single one of you who have bid me farewell regardless the mediums used, be it physical or virtual. I am so blessed to have a friend like all of you, you have no idea. And I am especially more grateful and thank you to all my family members who’ve always supported me in any ways possible. So very blessed to have such a wonderful loving, funny family whom I can count on anytime, any day, anywhere ❤
May Allah bless you and your family, whoever you may be (: